I think some people really disregard the fact that emotional abusive relationships can truly change someone, and cause PTSD. About two years ago I was in a tough spot. I was with someone I loved more than anything in the world and would absolutely do anything for to make them happy. Shit was good until it wasn’t. When days were good, they were really good, but when days were bad there is no doubt that they were absolutely unbearable. I stayed in that relationship way longer than I should’ve because I ignored the red flags in the beginning. It wasn’t until I was under his complete control and not able to do anything or even have any friends that it started to click.. but by then I felt stuck and felt like I couldn’t get out, I mean I lived with him and he drilled it into my head everyday that I have no one else… which I didn’t. Then one day, I found out he cheated on me, and shit hit the fan. Needless to say, I left that day and never went back. Leaving him was possibly the best thing I ever did. But it comes with a lot of insecurities, and damage. I now two years later have a wonderful loving boyfriend who would never do anything to hurt me, but remember when I said how mentally abusive relationships can cause PTSD? Yeah I experience it everyday. I think everyone is out to get me and that no one ever really stays long. I’ve hurt my boyfriend who loves me so much because I’m scared of letting him love me. Because I’m scared to open myself back up to be let down again. But I’m trying to be open and be who I was before my previous relationship. It’s hard as hell but one day at a time.

jopara:

*googles number i dont recognize calling me instead of answering*

hotboyproblems:

I hope my nintendogs are alright, I haven’t fed them in 6 years

elven-child:

friendly reminder that people you consider rays of sunshine can:

• get pissed
• get stressed
• experience negative emotions
• cry
• feel rebellious
• be done with everyone’s shit
• be too tired for anything
• feel overwhelmed
• need to be comforted
• get furious and demand to be taken seriously

violentwavesofemotion:

I put my arms around myself, all that I am, all that I can be. I stand here in my own history, with all my mistakes and victories. I try to walk gently on this earth.

brow:

“i cant sleep”

“why”

BITCH IF I FUCKING KNEW, I WOULD’VE FIXED IT ALREADY AND GONE THE FUCK TO BED LIKE????

honeyangelbaby:

i’m a subtitles on kinda girl